It's no secret that losing weight isn't easy hell it's not even moderately easy. I can't quite compare it to anything else because when you want to lose weight it impacts almost every decision. It is not just a diet it is a mindset and a mentality that must follow you everywhere you go.
I hope I haven't scared you away because my purpose of this post is not to scare you away, but rather to tell you of my own "rocky road." I have read hundreds of before and after weight loss stories with just simply a paragraph saying "yeah sure it was hard at times." You know exactly what I'm talking about too because every weight loss story has one little blip about the "hard part." I have had days where eating three salads a day is just what I consider to be "life." I have had other days where I would rather not eat at all than put another leafy green in my mouth. And the latter is what I will discuss with you. There are mountains on every journey you can choose to sit at the bottom and think "well I can't climb that mountain it's too tall." Or you could gather your gusto and get moving. Or because I am a firm believer in always having another option (due to my unbelievable obsession with the Divergent series.. moving on:) you could dig a hole through the mountain ( which is the less efficient option if we are being realistic.) And so that leaves us with climbing that mountain. I don't have it in me to lie to you and say that these past few months have been easy because they simply have not. I signed up to do a trial run with the ROTC at my school and simply fell in love with it. I signed up knowing that I would have to lose 70 lbs before I ever really got to commit to the Army. I failed 2 APFTs (Army Physical Fitness Test) which measures your physical ability. All the while watching my friends contract with the Army and have a clear future and plan. This all happened while I was just shy of starving myself and eating mostly salads, eggs, and meat. God I cannot tell you how many times I wanted to give up! When I got on the scale and the numbers were the same day after day, or when the measuring tape showed a quarter of an inch higher than last week despite not cheating on my diet. And for heaven's sake I read these stories about people dropping 50 + lbs in 6 months following a clean diet and exercising every day and they are so motivational! But I constantly compared myself to these people online that claim this insane weight loss accomplishment and I sincerely commend you. But then I look in my own mirror and wonder why I can't lose weight that fast, and why I ONLY lost 20 lbs and can't seem to budge the scale no matter what I do. But then I remember what I have accomplished. I may have failed my first two APFTs, but I passed my third APFT with flying colors because I worked my A** off training almost every day of the week. I took almost three mins off my 2 mile time. I lost 4 inches in my waist and need a new belt because I ran out of holes on the one I was wearing. My leggings don't stay up anymore and my t-shirts are baggy. But more than the physical changes I realized I am tough as hell because I showed self- control beyond what I ever expected I could do. And for this I am proud. To me the good here does not outweigh the bad, but I must warn you I am a dangerous perfectionist, but I know that the closer I get to my goal the closer the good will be to outweighing the bad. No, my friend, my journey has not been easy it's been a very rocky road. But I am proud of the road I have traveled thus far and I am determined to finish this road a stronger and better person. I must say I am still on this journey for the destination of joining the Army, I am learning that the journey is the most important part. I am learning so much about myself. I am building myself, not just my body but my determination as well. My journey is pushing me every day and with this I know that I can do anything that I put my mind to. Enjoy the journey, Meg
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MegI am an 18 year old premed student. I am on my journey of losing 80 lbs! You can follow my progress on my blog and my YouTube channel Journey With Meg. Archives
February 2018
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